three months ago, i would've gotten extremely and uncomfortably close to your face and laughed very loudly if you told me i'd say this one day in september:
public school is not, in fact, the worst thing that's happened to me.
really, it's not so bad. actually, i'm thankful for it. --WHOA, WOW, WHAT?! yeah, i'm thankful that i go to public high school. here's why.
1. being there makes me feel immensely grateful that i've grown up in the community that i have. now, i get to see firsthand (every freaken day) how other people live. their beliefs, or lack thereof in some cases, and their ways of life and everything that goes along. and in that, i see a drastic difference between them and me, also the people that raised them, and the people that raised me. 2. i get really excited when someone notices i'm different or when they talk about God or religion or anything like that. i now feel like the light i'm supposed to be. (i just mean it's hard to feel that way when you only hang out with church kids, like i do.)
so now, i'm in a place where virginity is like a pokemon card collection. you cant be in high school and admittedly still have it in your possession. to me, it's amazing. today, a crazy obnoxious boy in my second block asked a girl how many guys she's slept with. (i SWEAR, it's like a game to them. they do it alllll the time. it's gross.) he didnt ask me, but i was very much hoping he would, just so i could say "none." i wasnt, and i'm not ashamed of that fact....call me nerdy, but i'm glad i havent been exposed to a couple hundred std's.
yeah. so i just wanted to share that. and i know my previous posts have carried the theme of "my life is sucky", and i'm sorry about that. my life really isnt that bad. and it's getting better everyday. God is doing some beautiful things, and i'm learning to trust Him a lot more.
and for these things, i'm thankful.